Let's hear it for not-so-small victories!

Yesterday I passed a major hurdle, and I am very proud of myself for clearing it! Yesterday was perhaps one of the longer days of my life...I was cranky, sleep deprived, and starving. By 11am I had been up eight hours and had had coffee and a pork chop (I know, not the most nutritious breakfast but it's what I had available!). Now usually in these circumstances, I use it as an excuse to eat however much I want and whatever I want, and I want it *fast* and preferably cheap as well. Yes, I am still talking about food! ;)

In any case...I resisted that urge..I had come too far. I was pressed against time though because I had to be at work and had about a half hour to eat whatever it was I was going to eat. So it came down to two choices- either Applebee's and their spinach and grilled shrimp salad (delicious!) or going to Rite-Aid and grabbing a can of cashews. They would of tasted really good but portion control would of been an issue, and I was worried about the fat content. It all hinged upon whether Applebee's was open or not- I let fate make the decision for me.

They were open, and I had the salad and a glass of water w/ lemon. The salad was good, and actually filling. I kinda felt bad for the girl behind the bar who was serving me because I know she wasn't going to make jack on my order..and she was trying. Offered a soda, a diet soda, soup w/ the salad. Good on her. So I was going to leave a little extra for the tip. In the course of conversation w/ her, turns out she's the wife of an old friend from high school. Amazing. Definitely got the extra tip, and now I have a friend behind the bar at the Applebee's near my job. So everybody won. I managed to stick to plan the rest of the day- not very nutritious but I got through it, and really didn't eat that much at all. Had sushi for dinner. Cheap, horrible sushi, but it was sustenance and on plan.

For I think the first time ever, I controlled what I put in my body as related to my emotions. I made my end goal bigger than my immediate, *temporary* concern. My body thought it was starving to death and that it needed a lot of food to accomplish the goal..but in reality that wasn't the case at all. I live in the U.S.A. in suburban NJ and surrounded by friends and family. God willing these circumstances persist, I am *never* going to actually be _hungry_. Just unprepared. Also, I needed only a fraction of the amount of food that I thought I would need to feel full. So let's hear it for not-so-small victories!

P.S.- Unofficial weigh-in has me at 265.4, which brings me to -11.2lbs total as of today. Guess who has two thumbs and is going shopping? That's right, THIS guy!!! ;)